Tuesday, October 06, 2009
10/06/2009 12:21:00 AM
Life has been ups and downs lately.
I happy to have a job I kind of enjoyed. Though it can be stressful, I finf it fulfilling. Happy to have maoli by my side.
I never thought that this job can teach me so many things. To interview people, asking people to do things, pouring love n care to my colleagues, shouting at them for doing the wrong things. At times, even doctors show respect to me. This is an experience I never had. I always feel that I am a grade lower than others and at times, felt inferior and dare not voice out my opinions. Though I cried and once wanted to give up, I am happy Dr Chong, my boss, held me back. Now, I felt like a stronger lady in work. Though I do not know what kind of person Dr Chong really is deep inside, but i know that he has been a gd boss to me and my colleagues. I am greatful. When I am transferred to the Dental Centre, things will be dfferent but I hope I can handle the stress and new enviroment. Till now, I am still quite hesitant. Not knowing whether this promotion is a good or bad move for me in work.
This job dun give me a high pay but it provides my daily essentials well. It pays me well enough for me to save monthly. It gives me a second thought as to whether I should find a more pay-satisfying job.
Dad, brother and I are buying a car. I am excited and so is Bambi. However, it also means that we have to be more thrifty.
I am happy that brother is slimming down and is gaining his long lost confidence after reading a book. He seems happier and I am so happy for him. Dad is as usual. One moment, he can be so sweet, another moment, he is driving me nuts. As for Ahma, she is still the same. Living a simple life with my cousin, Jiali and her sisters.
Wasnt feeling well lately and has the tendency to feel giddy. Am scare but dont want to see doctor as I'm scare of tking medicine. Scare kena drug allergy that leads to swollen eyes....
I miss bonkers but don't have time to visit them. And when I have the time, I am not feeling well... I wish we live only a few blocks away...
Am goin for a trip to China with maoli n his family. I am excited as ths.is our 1st trip out of spore. im loving life...
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Saturday, August 01, 2009
8/01/2009 01:17:00 AM
What is happiness? Its not all about money, its not all about love, its not all about understanding.. Its about Balancing all three.
How to balance? I don't know.
Sometimes, I hope that I've got no commitments and that my life all about myself. People around me always thought they understand me. But how deep do they understand? Do you know what I really want in life? Do they know I am lonely and have no one to talk to, no one to accompany what I really loves doing? Initially, i thought its ok. Then, I start to feel sad because when I want to speak out, I felt that its useless. So what I speak out? You fork out your time specially for me? Or you tell me the same consoling words? Or you'll tell me you don't know what to say? Gradually, I pick up the bad habit of keeping to myself. I occupy my time with work. Its the best medicine. And I got too engross with work, i spend lesser time with people around me. And i felt like im drifting away from everyone.. And i acted normal.. And i hate it.. Then the hatred of explaining grew.
I know I am in the wrong to act and behave this way. But this has become something that's difficult for me to change.
I might take things for granted many many times but everything happens for a reason.
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Thursday, July 09, 2009
7/09/2009 01:51:00 AM
Im emotional to knw MJ is dead.. im not a great fan of him.. but the media is crazy abt his dead and im more or less "manipulated".. Such a talented man shldnt die at 50.... seeing speech Paris (MJ's daughter) gave, i cried within seconds.. I have been listening to his songs lately n his voice juz relaxed my muscles instantly.. peaceful n relaxing...its ok tt his face is fake.. its ok tt he's black.. i still love him.. his talent and dance moves were beyond excellence..
I dont understand.. what's wrong with those people hu cant stop crtising him, or even say he created this fake dead.. this is really ridiculous!.. they must be people who are v badly affected by the economy.. been shaking leg at home n has nth better to do.. who are they to comment??? boring chicken.. chicken chicken chicken!! peck peck peck.. idoitics..
im very stress lately w work.. im transferred to elias mall for 2wks.. that clinic is the hackiest clinic i've ever seen.. its so messy n dirty.. its worst dan mrt's toliets!!! n im supposed to clear all the shits.. and shittier tings happen.. cant b bothered to elaborate.. anw.. im a stupid asshole to help and the clinic is reali luckily to have me..
I also came to realise that my lady boss is e most capable woman i've ever met in my life.. she's the pilliar of her husband.. plan for all major and little issuessss in the company.. she handles a damn 36 CLINIC!!! she knws each and every nurse and doctors at her finger tips.. n frm renovation to salary to weekly reports to FOUR CHILDREN and her damn gd catch husband..... she's handling everything herself w/o complains and is stil improving.. whao.. she's my real life idol.. i tot such a woman only exist in fairytale life.. well.. her patek philips watch and tt humongeous bling bling doesnt come by w luck.. all thanks to her talented brain.. may she share w me.. one day....
I wish I've got such a mum i my nxt life.. bro is cumin back frm sailing and im excited bcuz he bot me GUCCI WALLET!!!!
Went to Serene's 21st bdae chalet.. i enjoyed myself soooo much w my polymates company.. bcuz its a long long time since we last catch up..
again.. i miss my girls.. n of cuz.. my bonkers too...
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Friday, June 05, 2009
6/05/2009 12:03:00 AM
i don't know why i have been unhappy... why??
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Thursday, June 04, 2009
6/04/2009 01:45:00 AM
I miss the bonkers.. I miss the yummy cake ah hoon bought. Its my off day. I slept for a gd 15hours. Am still sleepy now.
These few days, I start to ask myself if friends are forever.. I can be so bloody sure in the past that my bitches wil stand by me 50 years down the road. I am hesitant now. We are so busy with our own work etc. What wil happen in future. When a group of friends don't meet up too frequent, they will start to drift, isnt it? Sad..
Perhaps this is life.
I am glad I have a family that adores me. Its all that matters...
I have been working in qnm for 4-5months. Time really flies. I hope i would be stuck in qnm but then again, things are getting better at work and I am startin to love work once again. The mother fucker dentist finally behaves like a normal human and my colleague is helpin me quite alot after knowing that i wanted to quit being the in charge. I have also learnt to be a happier person by hack caring. NO $$$ = NVM.. Too much paper work = NVM.. Everything is NVM now.. Oh man.. I should have master this long ago..
Well.. as long as i get things done on time.. it doesnt matters..
I'm looking forward for Saturday. Getting iphone. Im so high with the thought of it.. I seriously miss the bitches and I wonder if they miss me too..
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Thursday, May 28, 2009
5/28/2009 12:01:00 AM
25/05/09
My colleagues waited 1 hr after work just to celebrate my birthday. Its was the 1st time I visited the "China resturant", Da Chang Jin @ Kallang. Surprisely, I kinda like the food... They bought me a chocolate cake. It's a simple supper, simple enough to brighten up my day...
26/05/09
It's my actual birthday but my girls are having exams, maoli cannot take leave, dad is working, bro is sailing and i miss the bonkers. Planned to stay at home and sleep the whole day, but decided to visit bonkers since i've already forgotten when was the last time i seen them. Ah hoon bought a very yummy yummy chocolate cake! But i ask her not to sing birthday song because I paiseh.. wahahaha... i ordered pizza, eddie bought us to dine in crystal jade. It was out of coincidence bcuz eddie din know its my bird day.. :) Its just a birthday and i feel that its no big deal, not worth mentioning.. Anyway, i loved and enjoyed spending the day with the bonkers. We took really cute pictures and is waiting for Ah Hoon to upload for me.. :) :)
27/05/09
Supposed to meet Serene and Lifang but i cancelled the last minute because i forgot that Im working till night. However, I'm feeling damn sick. Fever, sore throat, flu, slight cough, whole body is weak. Worked half day, seen a doc, go back home to rest. At night, my eyes were swollen due to drug allergy. At this point, serene and lifang knocked on my door with a cute little cake. I was really caught off guard as I was dressed in pyjamas pants and blouse. (what a combination!)
I was actually sleeping when they came. They went to my work place to surprise me. Sadly, I was already at home. And they came all the way to my house to surprise me again... How sweet!!!!!!!!!!! I really don't know how to thank them. And they bought me a very chio red colour jewellery box. Oh man... oh man... its seriously chio!
Tomorrow will be another boring day at work. Lots of hassle because of the Swine Flu thing... Please go away Swine Flu.. SHOO....
Meeting my girls on Saturday but am really disappointed that chups cannot make it. I should have planned like 1 month before hand. But i am really lazy to plan another day/outing. Just let nature takes its course. My medicine is taking effect again. I hate Erythromycin! I don't think its suppose to cause drowsiness.. But I am drowsy now.. What the heck. ZZZZzzzzzzZZZZZZzzzzz
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Thursday, May 07, 2009
5/07/2009 11:12:00 PM
I felt that I am always bullied lately. I don't know if im being sensitive and petty. I feel that I already have a very high tolerance level. However, if a person crossed the line, I can be more fucked up than anyone could have imagined. Work is like that. Family also like that. Human nature. All gods above, do something...!What is Swine Flu and wil I ever suffer from it? For all the precaution the clinic is taking, I'm kinda scare.. Grr....
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